Drove to Greenfield last night to see Jules & have dinner with her & her posse. As per the usual with my hard working, hard loving, hard driving, hard playing daughter, she was in "town" (which for her means in the Northeast: her circuit ~ Ptown, Boston, Western Mass, NYC) & Hudson, where I happened to be, was not on her whirlwind tour. I had to go to her, & it was my pleasure.
If it has not been made abundantly clear, I am insanely in love with my daughters.
Jules & I have always had the most romantic of relationships, from the womb. It is just the way it is. If you don't get this, or my remark seems somehow offensive or inappropriate, well, I really don't care, because it is absolutely true. It is not that I don't love my other daughters any less, though I am not of the school of being fair (in the moment) about my maternal affections. Yes, I do have favorite(s) ~ in the moment, they are all my favorites ~ the one in front of me is (most often, unless they are very, very bad . . . ) is my favorite & they all have their very specific niche in my heart. Those of you who know me, know I am exceedingly flexible, go every way & I am 1000% full-on in love with whatever I give my attention to.
Oh Mama, thou protest too much. Just love.
When Jules was very little but old enough to talk, she was laying in bed with me, patting me, snuggling, seriously, & telling me how much she loved me. I think she was a little sick with a fever. She told me she was going to live with me forever. Of course. I said to her, well, someday you are going to fall in love & maybe have a family of your own. She turned to me and said, do you mean married? And I said, maybe . . .
She made a face and said, I don't think I want to get married. And anyway, when I grow up, Eva (our tenant at the time) will be an old lady, she will die & I will move in upstairs with my children & take care of you forever.
This past fall, I was on a very ambitious Love Artist tour & there was the possibility of some actual physical danger. This is a story for another time, but Jules happened to be with me at this time & without knowing the details ~ if we weren't already bonded in the most ultimate of ways, well, we are now, even more deeply than we knew possible.
When I presented this story to a divine channel of mine, she said, YOU MUST LET HER BE YOUR BODY GUARD. THIS IS PART OF YOUR KARMIC CONNECTION. JUST REMEMBER TO THANK HER.
I do, all the time, but never enough. Absolutely never, ever, enough.
Thank you Jules, again.