dear love artist,
My heart has been covered up with sadness
the past few days...Hard to put my finger on it...
That's the most frustrating thing, Is when I cant' put my finger on it.
I'm happy to let it go, even if I don't know what the "it" is.
Do you have any suggestions?
Your sister in love.
I know that feeling, when you don't know what 'it' is . . I feel it as sadness often too, though sometimes it creeps in in other forms, like fear, but with no substance to it, just a wind, sometimes just the smell of it. I have been sitting, minding my own business & felt sadness enter the room like a person, a stranger just walking in, somehow with their own key. I envy the europeans who allow themselves the luxury of melancholy & existentialism. We americans are so uncomfortable with the undefined, even when we practice.
Well none of this is particularly helpful, I guess . . let me see what I have for you in my bag of tricks . . why don't you take it in your arms rather than try to let it go? maybe there is something precious for you . . maybe there is something shy . . even if it is something that rocks you to the bone or something that just wrecks your whole day, maybe it is something that needs to be known.
Babies get really grumpy before they do something big for the first time and they couldn't possibily know that that horrible feeling inside means that in a day or two they will walk upright for the first time or put their fingers together in a certain way that will enable them to touch the thing they want perfectly.
Maybe it's something like that.