ether

i am from this big roiling sea today

sitting on the same cushion where i have sat every morning for the last three months

way before sunrise

with candles lit

i usually shun the wind

my skin feels too sensitive

like i can’t think

it’s the continuous rub

but this morning i owned it sitting at 4:30

i couldn’t see the waves but i could hear them

someone taught me recently how "to bring ether" into things

she told me it didn’t matter if I knew what this meant

to just do it & everything would change

this has been a time of faith for me

for just doing what i said i was going to do

for showing up

for not making excuses

so i began to put ether into everything

even tho i wasn’t sure how to do it

no questions asked

i saw it like a mist on the ocean

like a fuzzy grey layer that could permeate everything but barely be seen

& i taught myself how to sip it in & this started to change the weight of my body as it moved through the world

more connected through the hip & down my through my foot

but the biggest change was that i started to see with my heart

oh i wasn’t going to write that, it sounds corny

but my heart actually has begun to lead me as if it is a beacon shining about 3 feet in front of my body

& it is through this light that i am beginning to see, not that i hadn’t seen before, but i am beginning to see more

Comments

[linda v]

So beautiful. This Light. That we are starting to see thru...
Come home soon. We need you.

Love eternal

Linda

[denise]

that's gorgeous tla. i've been feeling my own heart soften. too much to say why now. but so very glad to know you are always there showing up loving. xxoo

[drala]

(even though..i wasn't sure..i taught myself..with my heart..see..)xo

When under ether

The ceiling is moving
Moving in time
Like a conveyor belt
Above my eyes

When under ether
The mind comes alive
But conscious of nothing
But the will to survive

I lay on the bed
Waist down undressed
Look up at the ceiling
Feeling happiness

Human kindness

The woman beside me
Is holding my hand
I point at the ceiling
She smiles, so kind

Something's inside me
Unborn and unblessed
Disappears in the ether
This world to the next
Disappears in the ether
One world to the next

Human kindness

[dallaire]

thinking of you in your homestretch... sending lots of love & can't wait to see you. xoxoxoo