may 12

it started to pour

will

(you started to pour)
(& pour & pour)
(you've been loving me really well all week)
(I just wanted to let you know that)
(I noticed you there behind the desk @ the box office & you are always smiling)
(at me)
(I needed it)
(i need it)
(thank you so much)
(you brought your travel journal with you) (from your trip to the states)
(you said later that you had wanted to tell me another story)
(we barely got there)(to the other story)(the story of your first love)
(when you were a boy)
(blackpool)(by the sea)
(kiss me quick hats)
(growing up not really the footballer you appeared to be)
(but we could barely catch up on your childhood)
(you were racing)(to california)(san francisco)
(you told the story of a lost love) (lost)
(I could hear in your voice that you thought there might not be enough time)
(& I kept thinking for what)(enough time for what)
(there was/is enough time)
(you need to breathe more)
(I was really listening)(I really was)(I kept looking at your face)
(your eyebrows)(your mouth)
(it was impressive how much you wanted to do the right thing)
(that you would wait for love to present itself in a way that would hurt no one)
(is that possible)
(I used to tell my kids that love & life is not fair)
(it doesn't add up in the end)

(turning the power on)(over)
(the best break up sex ever)

(breathe a little more)

(passion)

barney

(I stayed with you but you were a roller coaster)
(jamaica)(manchester)(the hacienda)(the dry room)
(chinese opera singers)(doodlebugs)(close blond nappy hair & kilts)
(am I still with you)(I asked you about your love life)
(we're both loners)(we're both)
(loners)
(you better come back barney)
(you got to liven up the shack)
(I'm counting on you)
(karma coma)
(psyience phiction)

(me & you)

(paradise)

(& then later):

hola k . . . just to say muchos gratias for the loving spot on
could've easily continued for the whole evenin
wil hook when bak   tail end a next week
enjoy xb

(more paradise)

martin

(I could tell you really wanted to come)
(& I love that you didn't hide your enthusiasm)
(in the world)
(full on)
(making shit happen)
(I asked you were in love & you said with making things)
(I asked you what was your main story)
(you know behind it all)(if you peel it all back)
(I said my story was about speaking the truth)
(after you peeled it all back)(whether I was speaking in film or poetry or just being)
(you said you had two main stories)
(you said the first one was control)
(said it was all about control all the time wasn't it)
(authority or just two people figuring it out)
(I asked you if you were a scorpio & then we never got to your other story)
(you were)
(you told me a story about love)
(I asked you how it went)(you said tragically)
(& we both laughed like crazy)
(it was an Indian girl when you were 14)
(her parents hated you)(they sent her away)(no goodbye)
(i told you would be loved again)
(i got a little chill so I know it was the truth)
(I heard you say it)ITHE TRUTH)
(you left a poem for the love shack):

The S & M Cafe

I was down in Islington with a girl one day
When she took me to this place, the S&M Cafe
She whipped me with the bacon, I said "don't be rash"
And the stuff she did with bangers was totally mashed
The shit we got up to was flippin' obscene
She handled my sausage while I was flickin the bean
She was going so fast, I could hardly catsup
I did her doggie style, had the sloppy seconds bagged up
What she did with corn on the cob, just a-maized me
I smothered her in sauce, but yo it was all gravy

(you're too much martin)
(but pretty perfect)(you cheered me thoroughly)
(thank you)
(chains)